JANUARY

01/10/23

Today I added a list of the concerts I've been to to my homepage, plus a list of concerts I'd like to go to. Unfortunately most of my favorite music is from artists that have changed their style or died in the last 15 years so it's impossible for me to see them play the music I'd like to see. Sometimes I think I should have been a teenager in the 90s.

Could have seen Hole, Tool, Nirvana, MCR, FOB, Slipknot, Type O, Linkin Park, Static X, Evanescence, The Offspring, Bikini Kill, Veruca Salt, EVERYBODY in their primes through the 90s and 2000s. The Offspring and FOB are still touring of course, but I'm not a fan of their newer music. God, don't even get me started on Panic At The Disco. Brendan Urie, if you're reading this: stop making music.

Sometimes I want an ipod for working out, but it's hard to justify buying one since I already have a phone and it's way more convenient to use spotify premium than manually download MP3s onto an ipod. Still, digital ownership and subscription media is a joke and I want to use my phone less.

01/08/23

Got back from my birthday weekend today! I went home and went bowling with my friends and caught up with everyone. Every time I go home I'm so thrown off by all the new buildings around. and the traffic. Truly the death of the small town #misanthropy. Still better than the city. In the city, outside doesn't smell right and also, everything is terrible.

Anyway I had a great time. Got a black and red birthday cake and forced everyone in the car to listen to MCR and The Offspring. A few days ago Tim took me to the museum as well and that was really nice. I was sort of off-put by the idea of not being a teenager anymore, but alas, the unstoppable march of time.

01/04/23

Today I spent a long time looking through geocities archives. There's some really funny/interesting ones, but the ones that really stand out to me are the ones in the Wellesley webring. That webring is a community specifically for women, and I'm so touched by the websites these women were making. Moms making memorial/awareness pages for their children who died in accidents, women sharing their healing journeys in a time where discussing trauma wasn't as normalized, women organizing lesbian picnics just to celebrate eachother, women making websites to share reproductive health resources just because they think it's important!

There are women posting poetry, self healing resources, asking visitors to reach out to them, arranging meetups, advocating against substance abuse and drunk driving. I found several "sisterhood" type groups that existed only to make friends and build female solidarity. I wonder where these women are today. I hope they're well. I feel like you don't see many things that are so innocent and wholesome on the internet anymore. It's mostly advertisements and social media posturing. Even advocacy posts have the sour taste of corporate backing and/or "educating" an audience. But on the old web, it was just amateurs creating spaces for themselves to do what was important to them.

01/03/23

Finally got most of my website pages functional. Need to figure out how I will share my music collection and what to put in my photo collection. Not sure if I want to use personal photos because who knows will see this website. On the other hand, this would be a great place for me to consolidate my favorite photos so I can look at them without digging through my 15,000 google photos.

As of right now, updating my blog sucks and is annoying. I'm sure theres a way to streamline this so I don't have to post it to my regular homepage, blog homepage, and January collection, but I have no idea how. I started coding 3 days ago and it's a struggle. Should've paid attention in computer science. All my pages (except my 404) are modified templates (credit at the bottom) because CSS scares and confuses me. Everytime I try to delete a box I screw up the entire site ): I'll figure it out eventually. Now to fill my gif page with 100000000 blinkies ♡